Fardin's

An evening. A regular evening in this earth. A kid is wandering in his garden. A kid still new in this world. A kid with pure heart and curious mind. He suddenly sees a cricket. A bird who can light himself. A BIRD WHO CAN LIGHT HIMSELF!!! His face lit up. You can see the joy in his face. The surprise, the shock. A whole new world unfold in front him. A whole new world full of birds who can light themselves. He then run in his home to tell his mother. He shouts, "Mom, Mom, I saw a bird with lights." He continue shouting,"Mom" and continue running around home. Well no one is home. Only a house worker who is there to look after him. A house worker with no interest what the kid has discovered. The kid become sad. He come back to the garden. He is sad and the cricket doesn't seem interesting to him now. When I was child I used to read book, a lot. Everytime I read a book , there's just so many thoughts running inside my head. মনে হত মাথার ভিতর পোকা কিলবিল করছে। ...

 The last two day was really horrendous to say. Even though yesterday I did manged to wake up at 6:15 after sleeping at 2 am. Go on a walk and it really felt good. The sun seems really bright even at 6:30 am. Summer season it is I guess. Tried french after that. Continued reading the divide. Let me attach an interesting graph from it.  That was all for that day. Didn't touch python at all. By the way, finished watching Inception. A good one. Today (21th May) is also bad. Didn't have a morning walk. Woke at 7:30 am. Only tried french. Continued the divide. Didn't touch python. and class will be starting from 22nd. Don't know how I will survive.

Felt sleepy at 6 p.m. Went to sleep and wake up at 12 p.m. Now my next day is completely screwed. Don't know when will sleep at night and when will wake up in the morning. The starting of the day was good though. Wake up at 6:50 (still late), went on a morning walk, get back home, took some rest, and tried french. Today tried to learn some family and home-related words. Currently learning on Duolingo but feel like now need to try something new besides this. Watched Alma matters today; a documentary show on IITians. Things that got me thinking is the placement jobs thingy. Job interview seems like an extreme sport. I am never good at these sorts of things. Another thing that keeps popping in my mind is I am 21. Throughout the last year, this was my most worrying thing. Age 21 feels like a significant thing though completely wasted the year. I had this feeling that I am 3 years behind the person I wanted to be.   So I was reading about the aid today. One important fact is for ev...

 So today wasn't a bad day at all. It's okay considering I was staying away for almost 15 days from the routine. Didn't go to the morning walk though. Even though last night I went to bed at 12:30 p.m wasn't feeling sleepy before 2 p.m which resulted in waking up at 8 p.m. Need to find a solution for this. Today I  tried to read "The Divide"-   Jason Hickel . Went through some parts from the first chapter. Here's a part I find worth mentionable - "underdevelopment in the global South was not a natural condition, but a consequence of the way Western powers had organized the world system over hundreds of years." I touched the french language after some time. Mostly revised things I learned before. Need to work on the pronunciation. So far I was only happy with trying to learn it. But feel like now I need to look at my outcomes from it. It's a different case for python though. I am still a beginner. So revised things I learned before especially ...

#21dayschallenge  #morningwalk  So for the last 21 days, I have been trying to build the habit of morning walk. And yesterday I have completed it.  The reason behind this was -  1. Normally I woke up at 7/7:30 am. But then I would just waste the time on the laptop until I have a class or other work. As a result, I wasn't getting any benefit out of it.  2. After corona arrived like other people I was also locked up at home all the time. This means I am not having any physical activities throughout the day. Another thing was my screentime increased significantly in this time.  Now adding morning walk means now I have to get out of bed after I woke up. Also, now I am having at least some physical activities in a day at the same time reducing my screentime.  The benefits am getting out of it are -  1. As I am getting early at 6 am. one or one and a half hours ahead I did previously. Now I have stretched out my day more time to do other thi...

  সবাই আড্ডা দিচ্ছে। সৌভাগ্যবশত আড্ডায় আমি ও আছি। সবাই কথা বলছে। কথার ফোয়ারা ছুটছে। কথার পিঠে কথা হচ্ছে। চারপাশ মুখরিত হয়ে আছে। আমি তন্ময় হয়ে সবার কথা শুনছি। কিছুটা ভুল। আমার ভিতরে চিন্তা কাজ করছে। আমি তাদের কথায় যোগদান করার সুযোগ খুজছি। মাথায় শব্দের পর শব্দ সাজাচ্ছি। মনঃপুত হচ্ছে না। কখনো কখনো আমি অস্ফুট স্বরে কিছু উচ্চারণ করছি। আমার আত্মবিশ্বাসহীন কথা তাদের সম্মিলিত স্বরে উড়ে যাচ্ছে। এদিকে কথা এগিয়ে যাচ্ছে। সময় সময় হাসির হল্লা বইছে। আমি ও তাদের সাথে হাসিতে যোগদান করার চেষ্টা করছি। তাদের সম্মিলিত হাসির শব্দে আমার হাসি চাপা পড়ে যাচ্ছে। তাদের সম্মিলিত কথায় আমি চাপা পড়ে যাচ্ছি। আমি ক্রমাগত নিজেকে আড্ডা থেকে দূরে খুজে পাচ্ছি। তারা এখানে থেকেও এখানে নেই। তারা আনন্দে আবগাহন করছে। আমি তাদের পিছু পিছু ছুটতে চাইছি। তাদের ধরার চেষ্টা করছি। তারা আমাকে ফেলে অনেক দূর চলে গেছে। সবাই একি জায়গায় বসে আড্ডা দিচ্ছে। আমি ও তাদের সাথে আড্ডায় বসে আছি। তারা আছে। আমি নেই।