Journal: Day 2

-

Felt sleepy at 6 p.m. Went to sleep and wake up at 12 p.m. Now my next day is completely screwed. Don't know when will sleep at night and when will wake up in the morning.

The starting of the day was good though. Wake up at 6:50 (still late), went on a morning walk, get back home, took some rest, and tried french. Today tried to learn some family and home-related words. Currently learning on Duolingo but feel like now need to try something new besides this.

Watched Alma matters today; a documentary show on IITians. Things that got me thinking is the placement jobs thingy. Job interview seems like an extreme sport. I am never good at these sorts of things. Another thing that keeps popping in my mind is I am 21. Throughout the last year, this was my most worrying thing. Age 21 feels like a significant thing though completely wasted the year. I had this feeling that I am 3 years behind the person I wanted to be.  

So I was reading about the aid today. One important fact is for every dollar of aid that developing countries receive, they lose 24 dollars in net outflows. This fact just shows how developed countries suck money out of the developing countries and never mentioned it. Tried doing projects that I have done previously in python. Projects like Madlibs, Hangman, Guessing game are completely beginner type.

(I am wrting this at 1 a.m. So for clarity today means 19th May.)

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Adda

-
  সবাই আড্ডা দিচ্ছে। সৌভাগ্যবশত আড্ডায় আমি ও আছি। সবাই কথা বলছে। কথার ফোয়ারা ছুটছে। কথার পিঠে কথা হচ্ছে। চারপাশ মুখরিত হয়ে আছে। আমি তন্ময় হয়ে সবার কথা শুনছি। কিছুটা ভুল। আমার ভিতরে চিন্তা কাজ করছে। আমি তাদের কথায় যোগদান করার সুযোগ খুজছি। মাথায় শব্দের পর শব্দ সাজাচ্ছি। মনঃপুত হচ্ছে না। কখনো কখনো আমি অস্ফুট স্বরে কিছু উচ্চারণ করছি। আমার আত্মবিশ্বাসহীন কথা তাদের সম্মিলিত স্বরে উড়ে যাচ্ছে। এদিকে কথা এগিয়ে যাচ্ছে। সময় সময় হাসির হল্লা বইছে। আমি ও তাদের সাথে হাসিতে যোগদান করার চেষ্টা করছি। তাদের সম্মিলিত হাসির শব্দে আমার হাসি চাপা পড়ে যাচ্ছে। তাদের সম্মিলিত কথায় আমি চাপা পড়ে যাচ্ছি। আমি ক্রমাগত নিজেকে আড্ডা থেকে দূরে খুজে পাচ্ছি। তারা এখানে থেকেও এখানে নেই। তারা আনন্দে আবগাহন করছে। আমি তাদের পিছু পিছু ছুটতে চাইছি। তাদের ধরার চেষ্টা করছি। তারা আমাকে ফেলে অনেক দূর চলে গেছে। সবাই একি জায়গায় বসে আড্ডা দিচ্ছে। আমি ও তাদের সাথে আড্ডায় বসে আছি। তারা আছে। আমি নেই।
Read more

Year In Review 2021

-
Not an eventful year tbh but somehow seems mentionable. I finally started doing things and started taking some initiatives. Let's get started- Daily Activities - This might be the biggest positives for me. Learning French has been a pretty enjoyable thing so far though going too slow. Still glad that I am still continuing despite some breaks. Morning walk has also been amazing so far. Later on started mood and daily activity tracking. Thinking of turning it into writing daily journal. Perfected my previously pretty good sleep cycle. Even though failed continuing some other things. Most mentionable was reading 30 pages a day. Couldn't continue python also. Others Activities - Did gather some experience in hosting. The best of this has be the 'Feelosophy'. To turn a plan into a program is a thing I never experienced before. Sad that no episode came after. "BUETDC DIALECTICS" is a really amazing experience so far. Skill - French is in still beginner level, so is...
Read more

Journal: Day 3 & 4

-
Image
 The last two day was really horrendous to say. Even though yesterday I did manged to wake up at 6:15 after sleeping at 2 am. Go on a walk and it really felt good. The sun seems really bright even at 6:30 am. Summer season it is I guess. Tried french after that. Continued reading the divide. Let me attach an interesting graph from it.  That was all for that day. Didn't touch python at all. By the way, finished watching Inception. A good one. Today (21th May) is also bad. Didn't have a morning walk. Woke at 7:30 am. Only tried french. Continued the divide. Didn't touch python. and class will be starting from 22nd. Don't know how I will survive.
Read more